huh…hope…
ever hav the feeling where u don’t really think there would be much expectation from something or somebody but yet, when things really turn out exactly as u expected (bad, i mean), you still can’t help feeling a little sad and disappointed…:|
i guess thats bcoz ppl can’t help having hope rite…huh unfulfilled hope can be so cruel…tts why i never like to giv hope that i’m not sure i can take up nor i like receiving those hopes…
i remember when i’m in school last time, once we went and visit an old folks home and my frens found a girl there, a pretty girl, probably around my age now…but she can’t speak…i mean, shes a mute…after a lot of non-verbal communications, we kinda got a lot of info from her…
apparently, her fren bought her to a busstop far from home and jz left her there…somebody find her and alert the authorities but so far, nobody really understand her sign language, coz its not the universal one and she have to temporarily stay there first until i guess, they find her home…she told us shes afraid of some of the occupants there who seems to be paying overly too much attention to her…
somehow, my frens kinda promise her we’ll help her find her home…we even took a picture with her, intending to put up her pic in a newspapers and stuff to help find her home…i dun really remember how much she understands us…but when we leave that day, i remember very vividly that i see hope in her eyes…a lot of hope…
but things never was so easy rite…after the visit, my frens did go to the newspapers office and ask..but apparently, the cost of advertisements are really quite high..then everybody got busy…then everything was jz left in abeyance…and nobody mention it again
i still feel very bad abt it, even till now…i dun think i’ll ever forget…i dunno..i jz can’t help wonderin where she is now…is she safe with her family…how long did she wait for us before she givs up…i guess for her, we’re probably jz like everybody, all promises but no actions…she probably wish we had never come and never giv her hope…
huh…i hope i won’t let somebody feel this way again…hope may be good sometimes, but i guess like everything in life, must be taken with a pinch of salt…
well my online time is running out..enough of reminiscence…tuning out!
