je ne sais quoi…( i don’t know what )

ever hav the feeling where u don’t really think there would be much expectation from something or somebody but yet, when things really turn out exactly as u expected (bad, i mean), you still can’t help feeling a little sad and disappointed…:|

i guess thats bcoz ppl can’t help having hope rite…huh unfulfilled hope can be so cruel…tts why i never like to giv hope that i’m not sure i can take up nor i like receiving those hopes…

i remember when i’m in school last time, once we went and visit an old folks home and my frens found a girl there, a pretty girl, probably around my age now…but she can’t speak…i mean, shes a mute…after a lot of non-verbal communications, we kinda got a lot of info from her…

apparently, her fren bought her to a busstop far from home and jz left her there…somebody find her and alert the authorities but so far, nobody really understand her sign language, coz its not the universal one and she have to temporarily stay there first until i guess, they find her home…she told us shes afraid of some of the occupants there who seems to be paying overly too much attention to her…

somehow, my frens kinda promise her we’ll help her find her home…we even took a picture with her, intending to put up her pic in a newspapers and stuff to help find her home…i dun really remember how much she understands us…but when we leave that day, i remember very vividly that i see hope in her eyes…a lot of hope…

but things never was so easy rite…after the visit, my frens did go to the newspapers office and ask..but apparently, the cost of advertisements are really quite high..then everybody got busy…then everything was jz left in abeyance…and nobody mention it again

i still feel very bad abt it, even till now…i dun think i’ll ever forget…i dunno..i jz can’t help wonderin where she is now…is she safe with her family…how long did she wait for us before she givs up…i guess for her, we’re probably jz like everybody, all promises but no actions…she probably wish we had never come and never giv her hope…

huh…i hope i won’t let somebody feel this way again…hope may be good sometimes, but i guess like everything in life, must be taken with a pinch of salt…

well my online time is running out..enough of reminiscence…tuning out!

oh…i jz finish watching Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa ( literal translation : " Prince turns into Frog" ) after 3 sleepless nites…=.= …so now, i’m suffering from tired eyes and i think i detect pimples popping out soon too…hai..

but luckily, its actually quite worth it…it turn out to be better than i thought of when i heard of this movie…at first, the reason i’m a little bit interested in this movie is bcoz wang shao wei is there and i think hes cool…;p…but then, after watching this series, i kinda really like Qiao Ern, the female lead…i never know she can act so naturally…

oh btw, the male lead, Ming dao is quite refreshing too…i never know of his existence before though, but hes really kinda cute…*-*  he actually reminds me a lot of my little cousin Meng Meng…oh i really hope that my cousin will grow up and still look the same like now, then he’ll probably be very good looking…lol…but then, the funny thing about ppl is they always grow up and look different and usually its not different good : \….well, we’ll see we’ll see…

i’m so glad that there are still some good taiwanese series being made…i mean, really, some of their series are really not too logical and the acting is bad and unconvincing and they don’t take care of any details…augh…sometimes u really feel like strangling the producer…but then, my opinion only…haha…so subject to rebuttal…;p

but anyway this show, well, its generally good…the storyline is not too slow too…something like Meteor Garden storyline + better acting…and u really can get ketagih…so hav a watch…if u hav the time or if u jz lov a funny + sob love story..;)…till then, ciao!

p.s. oh btw, heres a crazy fans forum for Ming Dao, the lead actor, haha…if u r interested…

http://www.soompi.com/forums/lofiversion/index.php/t6394.html

沒有永遠對的價值觀

i’m officially 23 for a week now…no big deal though, coz i’m actually unofficially 23 for about 10 months already…:)

anyway, i still find 23 a very strange age…its kinda like the age of in between…u know, i barely get 23 as an answer when i ask ppl for their age…24 still reasonable, 25 is the norm, 22 is also quite normal…but 23..hmm..kinda strange..haha and if u do notice, in movies, the characters are usually not 23 years old…seriously…-.-

i kinda been finding a lot of people around me mellowing this year…well, actually i kinda been finding a lot of stuffs about people that i wish i don’t have to know too…but by all means, i guess thats wat make life interesting, righto? ;p…the unspoken stories are those that are the most exciting afterall…

but sometimes, i do wish things just won’t be so roller coaster like…why all good stuffs have to be tinged with a little bit of bad…why couldn’t things jz be nice nice and no complications in between…

oh man, i’m pretty grumpy today…:> guess this is just one of those days where i wish i have more money, more time, more knowledge, more luck, more energy to settle my sea of problems that is rushing like a tsunami towards me at this moment…

well, life is such…come what may…CHEERS…to a better day…^_^

hello…this is a siaran langsung from anonymous cybercafe….:)

as u can guess, i finally give up on my internet at home…so now i am in a cybercafe near my place…and it feels rather weird to be blogging at a cybercafe, coz its so much more noisier…i kept hearing sounds of ppl boxing at the back and the machine guns ( probably courtesy of COUNTER STRIKE) and kids yelling in excitement and joy…and door closing and ppl standing at your back reading…hmm…so if i sounded strange, or my sentence structure comes out as very weird…well, u’ll know whats wrong…haha

i can’t believe one week of my hols is gone jz like that…really really fast…went to penang and back…and btw, i jz found out that i really really lov penang…so so so charming…u know, in a very very oldish quaint kinda way…and the sea…wow…i don’t think anybody can ever find fault with the sea…well, at least everybody who doesn’t live near the sea…:) …

oh dear, i think my online time is coming to a halt very soon…the countdowning thing kept popping up…huh…well till wherever and whenever….ciao!